We Serve a God Who Is Able to Multiply
Author Location: Germiston, South AfricaWhen Little Feels Like Not Enough This morning, as I sat with my Bible open to 2 Kings 4, I was struck anew by the stories of Elisha—how he multiplied the widow’s oil and again, bread for a hundred men. My heart remembered Jesus feeding five thousand with only five loaves […]
Wrestling with God: My Journey of Struggle, Awakening, and Transformation
Author Location: Wiltshire, EnglandYou know that iconic moment in Genesis 32 when Jacob literally wrestles with God? It’s a powerful metaphor for the struggle many of us face—trying to figure out who we are, what we want, and how to connect with God in the middle of all of it. Jacob was wrestling not just […]
Into the Closet
Author Location: Montana, USAIt felt as if I was in a dream, walking past the front lobby reception desk. Tracy was standing next to it, crying, a mutual friend of ours consoling her. Surely this wasn’t happening. This was all my fault. I had failed in every way. Missed every warning sign. Ignored every voice […]
Dear Parents…
Author Location: Centurion, South AfricaAt the age of 34, after serving as a missionary for 16 years, I had a conversation with my parents that many dread—I came out as gay. I wrestled with fear, vulnerability, and the overwhelming question: Would they still love me? Coming out isn’t easy. For many LGBTQ individuals, the hardest […]
Lessons from a Journey of Self-Acceptance: My Story of Embracing Authenticity and Faith
Author Location: Centurion, South AfricaFor most of my life, I knew something about myself was different, but admitting it—especially out loud—was another journey entirely. Two years ago, I came out to myself as gay, and about a year later, I shared this truth with my family and friends. It was the kind of revelation that […]
One Year Later
Author Location: Montana, USAIt’s been just over a year now: a year since I “came out to myself.” But not in the way some people assume when I say that. I already knew I was gay. For a long time. Since college, 15yrs ago, when I felt sweaty, tingly, and warm around a person of […]
New Year’s Eve Reflection
Author Location: Montana, USAFor many years now, I have had a similar rhythm to my end-of-year processing and evaluating and it’s gone something like this: “This year has been about the same as the one before and nothing really changed for me as usual. I didn’t meet anyone special. Nobody really knows me on an […]
My Trans Journey
Author Location: Baarn, NetherlandsWhen I first saw gender-swapped pictures of myself, I cried. Maybe it was actually possible to like my body, my face. What does it feel like to be transgender? It’s such a hard thing to pin down, almost like “How do you know that you are transgender?” Well, I didn’t, for almost […]
Celibacy
Author Location: Centurion, South AfricaI find the idea of celibacy very honorable – people who have the call to remain celibate to be able to use more of their available time and energy to serve the Lord. I also believe that celibacy is a call – and I don’t think that it is something you […]
First Visit to an Affirming Church
Author Location: Montana, USAI was nervous. Hands dug into my pockets, I made my way across the street to the church building, wondering if I’d made a mistake in agreeing to this. Afraid of what I would feel around all these people. Feelings that have become too familiar in this setting: hypervigilance, sweat, stiffness, discomfort, […]